So yea.
I've made it less than a month, at a community college, and I'm already considering dropping out. I'm going for all the wrong reasons, and am completely uncomfortable with it. I feel like a retard when I attend class because I really can't catch onto what we are learning no matter how hard I try. So I'm thinking, maybe I should just drop out. I know I should go to college, but I'm only going to make family members happy, not ME. Shouldn't I come first in my own life? I mean, it seems pretty logical to me. And yea, I know I'd need to find a full-time job, which is hard in this economy, but I think I could do it. I never had it in my life plan to go to college, not until my dad was all mysteriously gung-ho about me going even though he refuses to help me with it financially. And then everyone else in my family got all gung-ho about me going, so how could I not? I have to make them happy, don't I?
Gah...=[
Guys, please make me feel like less of a dumb-ass dead beat. Please?