did drugs become a part of your life??? and why??? was there anyone involved??? how does it affect your life now?? im curious to know because of the way i got hooked on my obsession.
i started off with drinking and smoking weed. had a friend who likes to tweak. one thing lead to another, i fell hard for him and tried it just so we could share his love, after swaring that i would never go near that stuff. now its about 7 months later and im hooked. its not to a point where all my money is gone and i cant pay my bills. i can handle myself. but i just cant stop doing it. atleast one hit a day is all i aim for. i know i should see a rehab and all, but i got plans for my future and i have lots of shit comming my way that i need to take advantage of before its too late. now if i go to a rehab, i may never get a chance to see those opportuneties again. or i may have a harder time reaching my goal, if i waste a few months of my life in rehab. and i dont like people knowing what i do either because i say i "tweak" and they automatically think im gonna steal their shit and that i cant be trusted. basically they just jump to conclusions. and im also sick of all the paranoia of me "getting caught with it, because they can tell im on a good one"