UUUHHHARGH (pt 2)

So my birthday has already turned to shit and it hasn't even happened yet.

I was going to have a birthday party (idk, I still might with a much smaller crowd than planned) but my friend Laura from school backed out because she has to work those two days. Even though I gave her plenty of time in advance to request off. But whatever. This party was supposed to happen a couple of days after my b-day. On my actual birthday, my family is supposedly coming down to visit me for the first time in over a year, but I haven't heard anything about it in a few months. So idk if they are coming down or not. I guess I shouldn't really hold my breath. I have been really depressed lately. I think it's mostly because I haven't been able to go out with any friends in months (without my husband, that is) because of work. UGH. I think I just need to get out if this apartment and I need a cigarette, which I haven't had one since last wednesday night. uihbnfieusgrikungbteriughnrvmdxlmnvfvknzdxoick