Bitch wants a battle, i'll GIVE 'er a fuckin' battle!

i told Ron and Hat that i'm gettin a 'hawk. i gave Hat a choice of seein' me pre or post hawk when he comes to town. i know i'm gettin one so it's not like i'm scrambling for it to happen already. does that make sense: i'm not in a hurry because i know that it will happen? anyway, so i figured to offer him a choice since he lives outta state and we may not even see him after this until October or something crazy like that. he said post, but take pictures beforehand, and if it looks aweful i can grow it out and he gets a good laugh in the meantime :P (says the guy who might try it out for all of about an hour whenever he gets tired of his sexy long hair :D)
Ron told me that it's gross. that "the whole punk/goth thing, its lame". so wait, lets review that: if i get two lip piercings she won't look at me when i'm talking, but since we're (probably) starting out with one she'll give us shit, but ultimately leave it alone and she can deal with a tat even if she doesn't like it. but when i say that i'm gettin a mohawk, WHICH IS THE MOST IMPERMINANT THING YET, she flips a shit! i told her that i love her, but i'm not letting her opinion stop me. i decided that it was best to let her know so that she would have time to adjust to the idea. we both grew up in the sheltered mostly white suburbs, it has taken me THIS FUCKIN LONG to get out there and make a decision to NOT follow the norms of these fuckin morons and SHE CALLS ME GROSS!! i guess she was more effected by the comunity think than i had originally thought. if i ever get married i am designing the most punkrock maid-of-honor dress ever, AND PUTTING HER IN IT!!
she's saying that she can't respect my choices as if i'm breaking edge or something! Jesus'Christfuck! alright fine! here's how this'll go down. i'm gonna tie her down while she's asleep, dye her hair neon pink (she likes that colour, we'll have to use black gloves to do it though), dress her up all shiny and skimpy, put rhinestone hearts on each cheek and giver her eye popping makeup. basically those chicks from the girly techno shit she likes. THEN we shall see what happens!! *sigh* i dunno, it's just pissin me off. the guy friends are encouraging (Ri, Hat, Metal-B, and RedKing anyway), me mum is excepting, but my best friend is telling me that i'm gross and lame?!! screw you Ron. Screw fuckin you.

this morning my (Brand Spankin' New/used) car broke down. had to walk back home and call a cab. not fun.
been clenchin me jaw again, i's makin' my back teeth hurt

so here's the real question: did i use enough CAPS, and itallics in this post or what? :P