The Gay Scene

"Alleyways stinking of piss, beggars in every doorway, straights and students coming to look at the freak show, and all the idiots saving all week, saving their stupid money from their stupid idiot jobs so they can come and shoot their load with some stranger."

Kids, you arn't missing much.

Protect your self-esteem, don't join us all in the cruising grounds, in the pathetic excuse for a scene, in our single minded search for a quick shag, to satisfy our egos, to make us feel better about the bitter decline into a downward spiral of sex and drugs.

It's not worth it, and I'm suddenly faced with a real regret about how I've lived my life so far.

Tomorrow, I will wake up, and I will be glad to be on this earth, and will seize every opportunity with open arms, and an open mind.
I will be happy. Most folk are only as happy as they choose to be.
I will do something for someone without expecting any reward.
And slowly but surely, I will pull Jackyboy out of the pit he has dug for himself.
Again.
And Again, and again.

This is what the scene does for you.
Don't let it grind you down, for underneath, we are all the same. Fragile and scared.

I'm off to bed. And tomorrow, I will be a better person.