Bedlam's Blog (13)

So... 22 years old...

Still livin' with the rents... none of the tats or piercin's I wanted to get, gotten... not doing contortion classes anymore... not at my dream school in the city... and still working part time on min wage...

Not really where i wanted to be at this point in life.

The plan was to get inta Columbia, move inta the city, get my tats, jog Mich Ave, start parkour and self defense training, buy the baby ball python I want, and get a paid…

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You know what bothers me? Here's what bothers me: People say that I look better without the 'hawk. Continue

.It's the rhythm.

.That it starts.

.In your heart.

.It's a beat.

.Like a pop.

.No a spark.

.Like a shock.

.To your system.

.In a flash.

.Unexpected.

.From the start.

.Not an art.

.But a pleasure.

.Will be struggle.

.In a muddle.

.Light as air.

.In the clouds.

.Such a feelin'.

.I don't get it...



It's really frustrating when people ask "What don't you understand about it?"

Seriously? Fuck… Continue

The bottle is a 'forget me' potion, but somebody always labels it improperly. They musn't do that, you know. They musn't because it makes her start all over again. That little bottle. But what can she do? The bottle isn't marked poison. "Drink Me" and she does. Then she starts again. Down the rabbit hole. Maybe someday they will mark it correctly. Until, then the straight jacket stays on and poor little Alice is not allowed to leave.



that's the third short we've written in so many… Continue

Empty space behind my eyes
Loneliness I can't despise
Reprise.
Not alone with no one around
I can't even
Make.
A.
Sound.
Nothing to give nothing to get
Just a reminder:
I ain't dead
Yet.
Lost thoughts
Strayed eyes
Gone.
To find some other lies
Tired of what I’m already told
Lost.
Trying to evade the mold
Emo.
Artist.
Goth, Punk, Scene
You got lost in the words and forgot what they mean.

*evil cackle* THAT'S RIGHT BITCHES! I'M FUCKIN 20! Yeah okay not THAT exciting, but still, no longer a dumb teenager right? Now I'm a dumb 20-yr-old!

urgh I haven't been online lately due to acsessive amounts our sewing and other general madness. Me and my stupid promises to make shit for people by May 7th. Gah. I hate cosplay outfits. whenever sombody wears one that I make I keep figetting with it 'till they kill me and toss my remains off a cliff. It's just that cosplay websites are… Continue

okay, nothing against Shan, really.... okay, that's a lie. "bringing sexy back"? really? look we haven't seen much of his wrestling, but honestly he was awesomer when he didn't have a costume to live up to so much. the whole 'prince of punk' thing looks rediculous. he's a pretty good lookin guy, but the makeup and the chipmunck cheeks don't go together. makes him look like he has baby pudge. trash the make-up, trash the furry vest. there see, much better. oh wait, TRASH… Continue

alright if you didn't already know, Metal Mulisha member Jeremy Lusk officially died late monday night/early tuesday morning after crashing a stunt.

there's a short [article] that has a different vid. and another [article]…

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yup, this wig:

'why?' you ask ... or don't .....

well i'll tell ya anyway. my boss would die of a heart attck if i came in to work with a 'hawk, i will not let that stop me however!! also, this way i can dye my hair any fucking colour and not get in trouble cuz look ^ !! there's a wig!!

i had wanted to do it saturday (tomorrow) but without the wig and without knowing when the wig will arrive, i'm a bit stuck... so… Continue

i told Ron and Hat that i'm gettin a 'hawk. i gave Hat a choice of seein' me pre or post hawk when he comes to town. i know i'm gettin one so it's not like i'm scrambling for it to happen already. does that make sense: i'm not in a hurry because i know that it will happen? anyway, so i figured to offer him a choice since he lives outta state and we may not even see him after this until October or something crazy like that. he said post, but take pictures beforehand, and if it looks aweful i can… Continue

i feel a bit disturbed recently....

i was talking to Tom (co-worker) about how his hair cut thinned out in the back and looked like it could pass for a short mohawk from the behind. he mentioned that he actually used to have a 'hawk. he said he cut it off when he was looking for work. i'm not sure if i can detail how it irks me, but it does. severely. i already knew that he was a bit into punk music, but as i get to know more about him, he was REALLY fuckin' punk. he had a bunch of… Continue

first off: Happy Inauguration/Camcorder/National-cheese-lovers/National-disc-jockey/Rid-the-world-or-fad-diets-and-gimmicks Day!! found this calendar that tells the events for each day and month.



the month of January is:

Book Blitz Month

California Dried Plum Digestive Health Month

Family Fit Lifestyle Month

Fiber Focus Month

Financial Wellness Month

Get Organized Month

International Change Your Stars Month

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it's snowing like fuck out and my car is NOT meant for this weather. it's supposed to be wicked cold tonight. suck. i don't wanta go to work tomorrow.



gauging my ears again. i forgot how sore it makes my left ear. these ones are glass though, all classy 'n shit. it's funny, but whenever i put them in all i can think is 'big man meets little virgin'. sex in my ear lobe. anybody got some brain-soap? my mind is pretty filthy.



actually if i think about it my ears were already… Continue