Why have I become so soft?

So, right now i'm wasted again, and once again I come back to this topic - why does living with the pop culture makes you soft? I study the law, I live in a dorm, I have a girlfriend that's poor, but still is into some fashion shit and pop stuff, like she listents to shitty "One Republic." My roommates are from the country, and I am too in a way, but that's not the point. My point is -  why the fuck I have become so soft. i don't feel the anger as I did before, I rarely yell FUCK YOU to the things I hate. OK, I study the law, I do somehow understand it in theory, though I never did before. But why the hell I have stopped hating? What's wrong with me? :D

That's just my thoughts, hope it made some sense. And sorry for my english, kinda really wasted right now, though probably it won't be better when I sober up. :)

Thanks if you red this, Kocii.