Here I am in the background again, with acceptance I become the dirt you walk upon,, today I'm so soft,yesterday you rushed to wash me away.. Here I am with my heart, punishing myself for caring,, living in hell, dieing to no longer feel pain,... HHere I am not talking, I am so loud inside yet I am so very sad... you say that you love me, you show that you hate me and you wonder why I cry. Here I am in the darkness now,,,put on my face cover upthe bitch.. Here II am silently screaming, so alive yet so alone, everyday I'm here so blame me,, "your hell" ,its all my fault,beaten down and critisized, you've discovered I will not talk. Here I am so hurt me, my weakness is my life, standing here wasting water, Your not worth a tear I've shed........