i am in such a terrible fucking mood and i just wanna vent.
i got myself into the stupidest situation ever. i was seeing this guy who has a girlfriend. she's the biggest bitch EVER and everyone knows that. she treats him like shit because she knows she can. he stays with her because he's dependant on her for a place to live (her daddy pays for her apartment just like he pays for everything else for her) anyway, things started getting kinda serious between us starting in october. we spoke every day, and he always told me how im so perfect and im the only good thing in his life, and he would always say things like "lub jooo" or "elephant shoe" but he never said "love you"..... and he was the one who started saying things like that... as if he wanted to say he loved me but he was afraid to or something.
so long story short, he really got my hopes up, and he made me feel like the most amazing person in the whole world. we had so many plans together and stuff.
then one day...... he just stopped talking to me. completely. absolutely ignoring me. he doesnt have a phone, so its not like i can call him. but he has msn and facebook...... he hasnt blocked me on either of them, but he is refusing to say anything to me. he wont even tell me to fuck off. no matter what i say, he wont answer me, and no matter how long i dont talk to him for, he doesnt say anything. i KNOW he's online and stuff because his facebook is always being updated.
and im just like what the FUCK. what the hell did i do? what changed? and WHY THE FUCK WONT HE TELL ME??!?!
i know i should just say fuck it and move on and whatever. but seriously, i fell for this guy, and i cant get over him. i've been trying since the end of APRIL. i'm a fucking idiot. im so stressed over this. obviously he's not worth my time or emotions, butttt.... im giving them to him anyway. 'cause im dumb. gahhhh.
AND on top of that, i met him throught this chick that i really wanted to be with. and i completely ruined everything with her because of him. so now im completely alone and its my own damn fault.
ugh. im just so frustrated. i want to go see him and punch him in the fucking face. but i caaaant do that. because i dont know what apartment he lives in >__< (because it's his stupid bitch girlfriend's apartment so i've never been there).......
anyway, sorry for the rant.
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